Dire and Desires

content below contains brief random emotional rant

I have this feeling where each time I see photos or updates of a friend who studies abroad, I'd have this one kind of burning spirit within me roaring wanting to be in the same shoes. A mix blend of envy, inspiration, motivation and also anger. Been dreaming to further abroad ever since Allah knows when. But thing is, I know my strength and I'm aware of my limits. Wouldn't want to stumble hard not being able to reach up to my sky high dreams yet at the same time, not wanting to sit down low and have a stiff neck looking up to people around me making it to the top.

Oh, wait No. Announcement *ehemehem clearing throat*

Penghantaran pelajar2 kursus perubatan tajaan Mara ke India telah diberhentikan

Last month ran on me hard and left self with mouth wide open not knowing how to cope things up. To realize the barriers and challenges towards achieving dreams and goals is to be aware of where we stand and where we head to. You know that feeling you have when you lost touch of things and when things stumbled over each others' lines without reason and it all happened out of a sudden? Well I'm having one of those moments. In life, there's bound to be moments where you find yourself stuck and then just lose faith for a second. Some might decide to have a leap when some might just let it be and let what ever's to come be. I wish I could see myself in both so I'd know which to pick. But I couldn't. Life is all about taking chances and risks. To have regrets is not an anomaly. To have doubts is neither rule nor exception, it's nature. It's okay to be down as long as you know your way to get back up. It's not wrong to be lost as long as you let yourself out to be found. It's alright to mourn as long as you're aware there's a silver one despite having to face the dark black ones. It's okay loves, it's okay. Have only faith have only courage.

Hradec Kralove, Czech Republic -done! and failed :')

RCMP-Vinayaka -looking forward to

USM-KLE -Praying hard for interview and entrance exam. Aahh.